Topic starter 4 April 2024 14:30
Three weeks ago, I had an MDMA session with Marcel. I chose to do this at home, mainly because I thought it would be nice to experience this in my own familiar environment.
I didn't know what to expect. I am 62 and have never taken a pill or smoked a joint in my life. I chose Marcel because he knows a lot about the subject matter, and that seemed like a good idea. The reason I booked an MDMA session stems from past trauma and an anxiously low self-esteem. I was constantly giving myself nasty confirmations every day that weren't exactly uplifting. After watching all the documentaries on Netflix and my nephew saying to me: "Auntie, isn't MDMA something for you?", I went ahead and booked after another three months of agonizing. And... I haven't regretted it for a second.
Of course it was exciting, but I was also looking forward to it. Marcel came here and we first took a brief time to get acquainted and ask questions. Together we discussed that I would just let it happen. My intentions were clear and Marcel was nearby. I can only say: what a beautiful experience. So nice! I was able to gain insights that stay with me to this day. And I have become a lot kinder to myself. I am really very enthusiastic about it and will definitely book a second trip, because I know for sure that I can achieve even more results.
During the trip, I lay comfortably on my couch with my head under the covers. I didn't talk, even though Marcel offered to and regularly asked if I was doing well and if I needed his help. I received beautiful things that resonated completely with my state of being. I still take that with me.
The only thing I would do differently next time: take the next day off. I had to go to work and I was walking around with my head in the clouds a bit.
Another nice effect of the trip was that I had no pain in my knees the next day and the day after. I could just walk down stairs again. Maybe there is still a lot of stress stuck in my body. Who knows, maybe a next session will help with this again.