MDMA therapy experience

I am grateful that I had the chance to meet you and undergo the MDMA treatment!
How do I feel? A bit hard to describe, because this is new to me!
I feel both light and heavy!
Sad and happy! Focused and unfocused! I am more aware of the things I do; the fear, stress, and worry have diminished.
I make less effort with unnecessary thoughts. Mood swings are still bothersome.
What is new to me is that I want to do even more things than usual, but I don't have enough time. On some days, I feel like there is something heavy inside me. I want to scream it out, but I can't! Other days, I feel very grateful for everything I have in life! It is a feeling that is becoming clearer that the little inner child that was inside me is starting to grow.
I am happy with it! The feeling of being a victim is less. My thoughts are clearer than before, my breathing deeper than before, and my body more relaxed than before! Thank you for the help, I have gained new feelings within myself!!!