Transformation, trust, and a beautiful trip

It has been a few weeks now, and I found it so nerve-wracking. I consciously chose to do the trip at home in my most familiar environment. Because trust is quite a big deal for me, I chose to ask my hypnotherapist to be involved as well. I absolutely do not regret this, but next time, that won't be necessary for me. I experienced so much trust, and I am eternally grateful to Marcel for that. Of course, this was partly due to the preliminary process with the neurotransmitter test and all the tips regarding dietary supplements, nutrition, and exercise.

What a journey, what an experience, a fantastic experience. From exceptionally beautiful and light to intensely dark, from laughter to tears. I found it very pleasant that I still had the choice to opt for the dark or the light. The delightful scents and music completed the picture.

After Marcel was gone, and against my better judgment yet instinctively, I smoked some weed; boy, did that hit me. I completely collapsed, screamed and kicked, and was incapable of doing anything for a moment. Afterwards, I cried so much and knew that I had let go of something so big; what a liberation, that felt so good.

For days to come, and still, all kinds of extraordinary things are happening. Nature was already beautiful, but now I am experiencing so much more; I see more and am accompanied by the most beautiful tiny butterflies, dragonflies, and buzzards. It was certainly two weeks after my trip that I became aware that I had heard a buzzard the entire time during my trip. It gave me goosebumps; the buzzard represents death, rebirth, and transformation.

Later, during a lovely walk with my cousin, I told her about the entire experience and hearing the buzzard. She then asked me what a buzzard actually sounds like—it was so beautiful—and a second later the buzzard answered itself, and the goosebumps came all over again. Because indeed, there is so much more.

I am grateful and move forward step by step, and will definitely go for a next time.