Topic starter 11 November 2024 13:46
On September 18th, I had my first Psilocybin (Hippieflip) session with Sascha. I was already familiar with Sascha from my session with MDMA, and because it was such an impressive experience, during which I had complete confidence in Sascha, I felt able to take this step. I had indicated beforehand that I found it quite nerve-wracking and would really like the combination of Psilocybin and MDMA, the so-called Hippieflip. This was no problem. Once Sascha arrived, I was quickly given MDMA, because the effects would take a while and the Psilocybin was still taking effect. The tea that Sascha had made was surprisingly tasty, considering that truffles don't really taste good (at least, that's what I think ;-)). Before the trip really kicked in, I quickly went to the toilet, because I find it annoying to have to go to the bathroom during such a trip. When I came downstairs, I noticed a pink mist hanging in the air, which normally doesn't hang in my kitchen. This was already an indication that the trip was coming. Because I had put pink toys from the past on the table and had a pink blanket lying on me, Sascha said that that was probably where that pink glow was coming from.
While chatting with Sascha, a visual suddenly caught my eye. Very clearly. It was a sort of tiger. He looked at me very wisely, like a kind of Vincent van Gogh painting. He was wearing a kind of headscarf that you also see on the Pharaohs of Egypt. I was so surprised to see this. Sascha even made a video recording of me at that moment, and you can clearly see my amazed look, as if I were a little child visiting Efteling for the first time. This old, wise figure transformed into a sort of Funky cow. The whole room had changed too. Nothing seemed the same anymore. My cat looked like an inflated ball, and Sascha's hands were floating somewhere in the air. Sascha's face also looked funny, like some kind of cartoon character. At one point, Sascha asked if I wanted to try to turn inward, because that was actually the intention. Seriously, when I put on the blindfold, it seemed as if a kind of world was already waiting for me. I was sort of shot off, as it were, and saw the most beautiful patterns, colors I didn't even know existed.
Unfortunately, my memory started failing me too, because the last thing I was somewhat aware of was flying through a sort of universe with music far away. But this is no longer a clear memory for me. Sascha sounded further and further away, and I can still remember telling Sascha that I couldn't recall having booked this session. Coming back to reality was very difficult for me for a moment. I don't know if that is because my ego was trying to come back. Nevertheless, I was so glad that Sascha helped me through this so well (at this moment, Sascha looked dazzling). This is so important in such a process. When I was fully back and my son came home (he looked like a Disney character at that moment), I was so proud that I had done this.
I discovered that I am quite sensitive to psilocybin. The plan was actually for me to dip my toes into the trip first, rather than diving to the bottom of the sea. On the other hand, that is exactly what I did. It took some time to process this, though, because it was the most intense thing I had ever experienced in my life. Now I understand why people say it often compares to giving birth or losing a parent, when you look at the intensity.
On October 22nd, I had another MDMA session with Sascha. This was scheduled in between other things due to issues in my life. During this session, I realized that I hadn't made the most of my first MDMA session (although I felt I had at the time) because I didn't dare to surrender myself fully. This time, however, I managed to do so. I was able to work on many things and gained many new insights, including on a spiritual level. It felt as if a whole new world opened up for me, and the Psilocybin session was linked to that as well. I told Sascha that it felt like coming home. As if all the little moments of happiness in my life had been collected in a jar and were being sprinkled over me every two seconds. I also felt very sad that my session was coming to an end and actually didn't want Sascha to go home 😉
I am still receiving insights and am very active on a spiritual level. I enjoy the music that Sascha played so much, and it feels like I go back to that moment a little bit. I am so happy that this has come into my life, and I hope (I am quite sure) that this can help many people worldwide. My gratitude also goes out to the Triptherapie team.