MDMA session with Janneke to treat PTSD, my experience.

Due to an unsafe childhood (of which I became aware when I was 8 years old) with a lot of verbal abuse by an unimaginable father and brother, I was richly rewarded with anxiety, compulsions, a need for control, and depressive thoughts, which many years later resulted in PTSD and a limited life.

The intake form:

The goal I want to achieve with trip therapy is the uninhibitedness of the 8-year-old child within me. Through the MDMA session, I feel that my goal can be achieved by being open to the changes that will present themselves.

The MDMA session:

With fear and trembling, I embarked on the adventure of an MDMA session on April 18, 2024, supported by Janneke. Thanks to her, after a number of phone calls, I gained the confidence to take this step.

I realize that every session unfolds differently. This is my experience: I had rented a B&B in Schiedam. And at 9:45 AM, Janneke arrived. First, we had a pleasant chat. Then I took the pills with water and lay down on the bed. I became very calm. I entered a subconscious state where I could look at myself and my loved ones in complete peace. I discovered what I have always known but never acted upon: that I can trust my inner voice. (I have overloaded this voice my entire life with questions like why, for what, how, etc., causing me to often make the wrong decisions.) During the session, I regularly felt the energy of Janneke, along the lines of: she is watching over me.

Two weeks after the MDMA session:

Now, two weeks later, I am experiencing an enormous sense of peace. I have spoken things through with my loved ones. I feel little fear, am more open and cheerful, sleep well, and have a lot of energy. I feel as though the effects of the MDNA are still continuing to work in my brain.

Finally:

By writing down my experience, I hope to inspire others to take this step as well. Little to no fear enriches my life.

Warm regards, Koos