Topic starter 13 April 2026 14:12
In February, we had a personal duo truffle session at our home, with Marcel as our guide. We both experienced it as a life-changing, deepening experience – very intense and – still – enriching.
In front of us stood a large glass of filtered mushroom tea. Neither of us has much experience with drugs – apart from a glass of alcohol. Before this Marcel discussed with us the general immersion during a trip, explaining how you go through it step by step. How you become aware of the first layer – constantly being busy with all sorts of distractions that chatter past like a lot of babbling. How your cognitive consciousness then wants to understand and control everything, sowing doubt – ‘should you really be doing this’?! This can initially become very loud.
The point is to surrender to the process, to go through every layer. Whatever it may be, face it and look at it. Then you reach the deeper layer, the emotional layer. You may encounter fear and anger here. Surrender to it, embrace it so you gain access to the next deeper layer. Here, long-suppressed pain and sadness can surface. This way, you peel off the ‘layers’ of your consciousness one by one. You follow the spacey music of Marcel, you become totally absorbed in it. At the empathic layer, you reach great Love and connection with yourself and everyone around you. And finally, you reach the Core of your being. In the core is only Self, the All, the smallest and the greatest together. Having a negative or positive attitude clearly impacts your session. Therefore, we each express our personal intention before we begin.
Grateful for this ancient medicine, we toast to a good trip and drink half of it in small sips. It's lukewarm and vaguely resembles cough syrup – not unpleasant. After just five minutes, my friend feels slightly nauseous and lies down on the sofa. Five minutes later, he sees brightly coloured, moving geometric patterns. It's not immediately easy for him to surrender to it, but everything is happening very quickly. With an eye mask on, it gets better. For me, it takes over ten minutes before I start feeling a bit spacey. And I don't see those colours at all! It's amazing how it apparently differs from person to person. Strangely, nothing from my immediate surroundings or frustrations comes up: not my childhood home, not my own family, not my work situation. My children both do appear – it feels very connected and loving.
My journey follows the broad strokes of both families and the grand lines of history much more closely. In itself, it's true that I feel a connection to that, but I didn't expect it to reveal itself so strongly in this session. What is particularly presenting itself is the female lineage of both my father's and my mother's families. They are both flawed in their own way and subsequently scarcely lived or acknowledged. For centuries, women have played such a huge supporting role, in support of men. In my vision, they stand miles apart, with hardly any contact, mutual understanding or respect.
Furthermore, there are entire generations of people across the world who have been unable to express themselves within the oppressive systems of patriarchy and colonialism.
For a long time, I've been struggling to breathe, feeling very constricted. Unlived lives present themselves – of women and men who couldn't live, died young, or went ‘underground’ because their voice, their culture, were not tolerated. I'm lying on the edge of a huge abyss – I feel as though I'm almost dying. This evening, I cry for all the unlived human lives. Every tear, every breath creates a little bit of space. Like labour pains, I breathe away every blockage. Every time it's breathed through, acknowledged, and named, something is released from the tangle of heavy negative energy. In this way, it's brought to life and set in motion. The blocked rivers begin to flow again, the current is an intense red colour – my boyfriend sees this too when he comes to sit beside me for the last hour and holds my hand.
Ultimately, after hours of breathing through this old pain, I connect with the universe. I only need to reach out my hand to automatically make a deep connection with the earth and everything that lives on it. Plants, trees, animals, people – everything is one, everything is energetically connected, visible in vibrant colours that move in all sorts of patterns, in the feelings of people, animals and plants. 5-dimensional, indescribably complex and rich!
During this session, my friend clearly saw the human connection and their dynamic interexchange. With their character or chakra pulled out in dynamic colours. He also saw my colours from a distance during the session. He saw my red rivers also flowing, but in a slightly different way. I didn't see his colours in that way, but we were connected on an incredibly deep level and that was very beautiful. It's actually such a shame we don't normally see those colours too. That would enormously enrich and simplify the world.
After this big clear-out, I'll sleep like a log, tidy and peaceful, without the usual nocturnal demons. My sleep remains deep and healing for the following nights too.
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Marcel, thank you for the introduction, for your kind care and for our mutual trust.