A special experience that held up a mirror to me

Hugely fascinated by books and documentaries about the unique effects of psilocybin, and with extensive experience with anxiety and OCD, I decided to put it to the test: after much reading and hesitation, I booked an individually guided trip session with Gijs, about whom I had developed a good feeling after reading his profile. Before, during, and after the session, his guidance was very skillful and pleasant. He listened primarily, but also asked questions and occasionally held up a mirror to me.

Then the session itself: I may have had the wrong expectations of my trip. I hoped to get rid of my fears, that they would vanish like snow in the sun. However, that was not the case. All my fears presented themselves during my trip. Sometimes so intensely that I found it very scary. But this time I couldn't duck away from them as I always do. I faced the fears and let them be. I alternated these moments of fear and pain with very beautiful, warm feelings of connection and unity. Actually, indescribable.

I am glad I took this step, even though it didn't give me the 'quick fix' I was hoping for. I don't think a quick fix is possible; it's about how you deal with thoughts and fears. And I have definitely undergone a change in that regard. In the days after my trip, I still felt a bit anxious, but it also gave me the confirmation that I can simply let my fears and thoughts be. I don't have to constantly work on them, control them, or run away from them.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank Triptherapie and Gijs once again for the beautiful, special experience! Additionally, I want to urge everyone: do not avoid your fears and thoughts, but do not make them bigger than they are either. A trip session is not a quick fix or a miracle cure. It 'merely' holds up a mirror to you.