Topic starter 28 December 2022 19:33
My first session (Dec 22, 2022) and first experience with truffles. I opted for a high dose because I was willing to take a big step and had (hopefully) prepared myself well. I mainly wanted to work on accepting my chronic pain and spend much less thought and energy on it. The session with Marcel was very safe and pleasant. It quickly became clear that he understood perfectly what I wanted to achieve and that he has a lot of experience. Because of this sense of safety, I could truly let go and let the process run its course. It was as if my brain was being cleaned up; everything burdensome was cleared away, if I could and, above all, wanted to let go—and that is what I wanted to do. 100%. The preparation was very important for that. The mindset, in other words. .
In the days following the session, I noticed that I had gotten rid of quite a few automated, annoying reaction patterns. The memory of how I reacted before the session was still there, but the feeling was gone. Now it is important to remain mindful and not fall back into the old pattern merely through memories. My goal: radical acceptance of my debilitating pain situation, which I probably cannot change much more about despite many, many, many forms of therapy; I have come a big step closer. It may well get better, but it doesn't necessarily have to. My pain is not better now than before the session, but I can cope with it better. It is as if a curse has been lifted from me, even though I didn't even know I had been bewitched. And that curse was not the pain itself, but the eternal thought of the pain. Thank you very much, Marcel. .